I left. I simply up and left her. I still didn't know if it was right... it worked the first time, for a while anyway. She was out of control, bringing all of those people back. I didn't know how I'd face her at work. Our jobs fit together, we're the co-founders of the Magicks Department. What a great job for Willow, a recovering magicks addict. I didn't know what we were thinking when we signed up for this. I should've known. I wish their was some way to get her under control. I still loved her, God I loved her so much- it hurt so badly to see her like this. I wanted to help her, but I just couldn't. She was caught under the spell (no pun intended) of magicks, and I wasn't strong enough to pull her out of it. I could try, but it wouldn't be enough. I had to take a break for a while. I needed to find a place to stay for the time being. Maybe I could stay with Anya and Spike... on second thought, maybe not.
It took all of my energy and willpower, but somehow I forced myself to go to work. I was going to try and avoid the department as much as possible, assuming Willow even came into work today. I had hoped that she didn't. It would be too much to see her everyday, doing the thing that made me leave her.
I had a plan though. I couldn't force her to want to get better or control her power, but maybe, maybe if I let her know- showed her the support she had, the way she should handle her magicks without losing control, maybe- just maybe she would come around and learn to quit abusing the magicks. I knew that Giles had connections with covens in England, and he wasn't too bad with magicks himself. Also, that woman that Willow raised, maybe we could turn this situation around to make it work. Jenny Calender. She was a powerful "techno-pagan", maybe she too could help Willow. Plus with the support of Buffy and Xander? Of course Buffy was going to be positively fuming when she discovered what Willow had done. She would feel the pain of all of the people that Willow had raised from the dead. I hoped I could help people channel their anger into helping Willow. I learned this from last time. I was so upset and angry I couldn't even see straight, but this time I could help her.
((open to anyone))